Why oh Why

Tears come streaming down as I cry
Why oh why
I want to stop writing but then I’d die
Why oh why
Why have I been blessed with these talents
Seems I’m going no where
As I just sit on them
but then my chest gets tight
And all I can do is cry
And write
Why oh why

6 Months of Love 19 Years Later

I have loved him and I love him
It hurts to know such entanglement exists
Stifling, unbearable, I cant breath
But I’d have it no other way.

Is this healthy?
Is it heavenly?
Is this good for me?

The weight is heavy, but I don’t want it to end
I am feeling
I am alive
Deep breaths will have to suffice.

This friendship
never lovers
never separated
A deep connection
I can’t explain it

I live for this feeling of life
I scream
even though I cry at the loss
I know it’s purpose is not lost

My heart is crying
not in anger or in sadness
but in joy and in gladness
19 years in the making.

What feelings will the future bring?